Since getting home from my retreat I looked at the DVR and saw that the Glee tribute episode to Cory Monteith “Finn” had been recorded. Immediately upon seeing the title my eyes filled up with tears and my heart ached. Yes, as a chorus girl I was a glee fan since season one and losing cast member Cory Monteith was a terrible tragedy. However for me personally it hit way closer to home than that. Just months before Cory Monteith died I lost my little brother Jonathan Hart. Jon & Cory were about the same age. They were both good looking, healthy, talented young men with so much going for them in life. Sadly, they both also battled a very serious addiction and ultimately lost battle. Losing my brother has been the most painful experience of my life. I still have moments when I can’t even believe that it’s true. It is just too much for my heart to imagine that he is gone from this world and I won’t see him, talk to him or hug him again. He was the first person in this world I knew since his birth. He was my first friend. Going on in life without him seems impossible at times. The hardest part is that they didn’t have to die. This evil drug and horrible disease of addiction stole them from us way too soon. I wish more than anything there was something I could do now to change it all. It feels so helpless that I can’t.
The one thing that I can do each day is spread the word of hope. So many of us are struggling with different things. Sometimes we feel so alone. Life is beautiful but also incredibly difficult. No matter what your struggle is please know if there is HOPE. People care. People love you. Reach out. Let someone you trust help you through this. Cherish your life, your dreams, and the people you love every single day. Fight for your life because it is precious. Your life is more valuable than you can even imagine. You can’t change the past. You can learn from the past and change the way you live in the future.
Much love to all of you my friends. Thank you for being here and being a part of my life. I am so grateful.
To Cory Monteith’s friends and family: You are still on my heart and in my prayers daily. My heart mourns with you. There are no words.
To My baby brother Jonathan Paul Hart: There is a hole in our hearts without you here. You are eternally loved and always remembered always.